I woke up. My eyes were still sleepy. The vision was blurry. I saw her getting ready to go out.
"Where are we going ?" I asked her.
"We are. You are not coming." She replied in a rude tone.
"Why ? What happened ?" I asked scratching my head.
"You don't remember ? Last night ? The show you put up ?" She almost shouted at me.
"Show ? What the hell are you talking about ?" I asked lighting up a cigarette. I was confused
"You promised me last night you wont smoke anymore." She said as she came near to me.
"What else did I do last night ?" I asked as I immediately put out the cigarette.
"You remember nothing ?" She asked in a confused tone.
"No. Just tell me what happened." I begged
"We'll talk later. When we come back." She said as she got up.
"Let me come with you guys." I requested
"No. Get back to your project. We don't want to be a burden on you." She refused.
"Huh. When are you going to be back ?"
"We'd be late." She said as they left.
I asked Uzair what all I did last night. He explained me everything. Oh My Fucking God ! I had put up a real show. I had puked out everything that I felt in the last couple of days being with her. I sulked onto the bed. I held my head in utter disappointment. Stupid Alcohol. I searched for my cell phone. I texted her.
Me : What happened, Appy ?
Appy : You kissed me last night. I never thought you would be that kind of a guy. You just wanted to get me drunk.
Me : What ? I kissed on your forehead. How was that taking advantage of you ?
Appy : You kissed me on the lips.
Me : What ? I don't remember anything. I was sloshed. I am really sorry if I did that. I didn't mean to.
She didn't reply. I was crushed. I went back to the couch and started to think what all I did last night. I just remembered the incident vividly. My head hurt from the hangover. I tried to sleep again. I couldn't. I wanted to talk it out with her. I wanted to apologize to her. I wanted her back even-though just as a friend. Nothing mattered to me more than her. I didn't feel like eating anything. I didn't smoke the whole day. I just waited for her to be back. The friends, the sitcoms, Hardik's crappy jokes, nothing cheered me up. I just wanted to go back to Baroda. I wanted to be with my family. It was more out of guilt rather than embarrassment. I didn't mean to kiss her. It just happened. I went back on the terrace. I called up my mother. As soon as I heard her voice, my eyes went wet. I couldn't finish up my words. I broke down. Talking to my family helped me a bit. I was calm now. I just wanted to talk to her.
I wrote something for her.
I fell in love with a star,
That came from the sky so far,
I couldn't get my eyes off her,
Then she asked for a favor,
"prove to me that real love exists",
I held her by her wrist,
I dragged her close,
Looked into her deep blue eyes and I froze,
For her touch was so chilly,
And the moment felt so silly,
I felt her cheeks with my finger-tips,
And I kissed her soft velvety lips,
She tried to resist but I didn't let her go,
The she too decided to go with the flow,
I cannot describe how it felt,
The kiss; made her heart melt,
The kiss was full of passion and lust,
Suddenly she turned into star-dust,
For she was not to be kissed by a man,
Otherwise turn to dust and join her clan,
The very moment broke my heart,
Felt like it had been pierced by a dart,
But the dart had left a huge scar,
Oh Yes ! I fell in love with a star.
My phone beeped. Text Message : Appy. I checked it out. It said that they would be back after dinner. Okay, waiting for you. I texted her back. I called her up. I just wanted to hear her voice. She picked up. I apologized to her. She asked me if I had dinner or not. I didn't let her know that I hadn't. She anyways asked me to join them at Sukh-sagar food court. I agreed. I reached there. They were sitting in a corner. My eyes were swollen. Anyone could make out that I cried. I didn't order anything. I couldn't look at her. I wanted to, but I resisted. I felt guilty for whatever I did. If it would've been someone else, I wouldn't mind it. But it was her. Arpita. I loved her a lot.
She took a piece of bread and some curry and extended it towards me. I ate it. She made a funny face. I almost giggled but nothing could cheer me up at that moment. We headed back to the apartment. She straightaway went inside her room as soon as we reached there. I was back on the couch. Uzair asked if everything was back to normal. I shook my head in denial. I called her up. Can we talk ? I am waiting for you on terrace. Come if you want to. I said walking out of the house.
Fifteen minutes later she showed up. I started explaining her everything. Everything I said last night was because she was still inclined towards her Ex. I was there whenever she needed me. But it hurt to see that she didn't notice it. I apologized to her again and again. I broke down in front of her.
"Chintu ! You are crying ?" She was stunned.
"Trust me Appy. I never wanted to do that or say any of those things. I agree I was feeling that way, but I wasn't sure if it was the right thing to feel. But because of alcohol, it all came out. I was really drunk." I said as I wiped my tears.
"But you never get drunk so easily ?" She asked me with suspicion.
"Tequilla and Vodka plus the cool breeze on the terrace. Anyone could get drunk. I am sorry. Really very sorry." I justified myself. or atleast I tried to.
"Acha, its okay." She said in a tone of forgiveness.
"So we're back to normal ? I don't wanna lose the friendship between us." I asked her.
"Yeah ! Come on. Lets go inside." She said as she got up. She tried to pull me up.
I got down on my knees. She was shocked. Her mouth wide open. I held her hand.
"Will you be my best friend again ?" I asked as I looked up at her.
She was smiling. The smile was more out of relief. She thought that I was going to propose her. I did, but not exactly proposed her.
"Yes, Chintu yes." She said as she pulled me up.
I had got her back. I promised her that I wont drink ever again or even smoke for that matter of fact. But all that didn't matter to me. Arpita was back in my life. My life was back on track. I had a huge sigh of relief.
I lost her and found her back in the same day. The 24 hours that changed my life completely.
"Where are we going ?" I asked her.
"We are. You are not coming." She replied in a rude tone.
"Why ? What happened ?" I asked scratching my head.
"You don't remember ? Last night ? The show you put up ?" She almost shouted at me.
"Show ? What the hell are you talking about ?" I asked lighting up a cigarette. I was confused
"You promised me last night you wont smoke anymore." She said as she came near to me.
"What else did I do last night ?" I asked as I immediately put out the cigarette.
"You remember nothing ?" She asked in a confused tone.
"No. Just tell me what happened." I begged
"We'll talk later. When we come back." She said as she got up.
"Let me come with you guys." I requested
"No. Get back to your project. We don't want to be a burden on you." She refused.
"Huh. When are you going to be back ?"
"We'd be late." She said as they left.
I asked Uzair what all I did last night. He explained me everything. Oh My Fucking God ! I had put up a real show. I had puked out everything that I felt in the last couple of days being with her. I sulked onto the bed. I held my head in utter disappointment. Stupid Alcohol. I searched for my cell phone. I texted her.
Me : What happened, Appy ?
Appy : You kissed me last night. I never thought you would be that kind of a guy. You just wanted to get me drunk.
Me : What ? I kissed on your forehead. How was that taking advantage of you ?
Appy : You kissed me on the lips.
Me : What ? I don't remember anything. I was sloshed. I am really sorry if I did that. I didn't mean to.
She didn't reply. I was crushed. I went back to the couch and started to think what all I did last night. I just remembered the incident vividly. My head hurt from the hangover. I tried to sleep again. I couldn't. I wanted to talk it out with her. I wanted to apologize to her. I wanted her back even-though just as a friend. Nothing mattered to me more than her. I didn't feel like eating anything. I didn't smoke the whole day. I just waited for her to be back. The friends, the sitcoms, Hardik's crappy jokes, nothing cheered me up. I just wanted to go back to Baroda. I wanted to be with my family. It was more out of guilt rather than embarrassment. I didn't mean to kiss her. It just happened. I went back on the terrace. I called up my mother. As soon as I heard her voice, my eyes went wet. I couldn't finish up my words. I broke down. Talking to my family helped me a bit. I was calm now. I just wanted to talk to her.
I wrote something for her.
I fell in love with a star,
That came from the sky so far,
I couldn't get my eyes off her,
Then she asked for a favor,
"prove to me that real love exists",
I held her by her wrist,
I dragged her close,
Looked into her deep blue eyes and I froze,
For her touch was so chilly,
And the moment felt so silly,
I felt her cheeks with my finger-tips,
And I kissed her soft velvety lips,
She tried to resist but I didn't let her go,
The she too decided to go with the flow,
I cannot describe how it felt,
The kiss; made her heart melt,
The kiss was full of passion and lust,
Suddenly she turned into star-dust,
For she was not to be kissed by a man,
Otherwise turn to dust and join her clan,
The very moment broke my heart,
Felt like it had been pierced by a dart,
But the dart had left a huge scar,
Oh Yes ! I fell in love with a star.
My phone beeped. Text Message : Appy. I checked it out. It said that they would be back after dinner. Okay, waiting for you. I texted her back. I called her up. I just wanted to hear her voice. She picked up. I apologized to her. She asked me if I had dinner or not. I didn't let her know that I hadn't. She anyways asked me to join them at Sukh-sagar food court. I agreed. I reached there. They were sitting in a corner. My eyes were swollen. Anyone could make out that I cried. I didn't order anything. I couldn't look at her. I wanted to, but I resisted. I felt guilty for whatever I did. If it would've been someone else, I wouldn't mind it. But it was her. Arpita. I loved her a lot.
She took a piece of bread and some curry and extended it towards me. I ate it. She made a funny face. I almost giggled but nothing could cheer me up at that moment. We headed back to the apartment. She straightaway went inside her room as soon as we reached there. I was back on the couch. Uzair asked if everything was back to normal. I shook my head in denial. I called her up. Can we talk ? I am waiting for you on terrace. Come if you want to. I said walking out of the house.
Fifteen minutes later she showed up. I started explaining her everything. Everything I said last night was because she was still inclined towards her Ex. I was there whenever she needed me. But it hurt to see that she didn't notice it. I apologized to her again and again. I broke down in front of her.
"Chintu ! You are crying ?" She was stunned.
"Trust me Appy. I never wanted to do that or say any of those things. I agree I was feeling that way, but I wasn't sure if it was the right thing to feel. But because of alcohol, it all came out. I was really drunk." I said as I wiped my tears.
"But you never get drunk so easily ?" She asked me with suspicion.
"Tequilla and Vodka plus the cool breeze on the terrace. Anyone could get drunk. I am sorry. Really very sorry." I justified myself. or atleast I tried to.
"Acha, its okay." She said in a tone of forgiveness.
"So we're back to normal ? I don't wanna lose the friendship between us." I asked her.
"Yeah ! Come on. Lets go inside." She said as she got up. She tried to pull me up.
I got down on my knees. She was shocked. Her mouth wide open. I held her hand.
"Will you be my best friend again ?" I asked as I looked up at her.
She was smiling. The smile was more out of relief. She thought that I was going to propose her. I did, but not exactly proposed her.
"Yes, Chintu yes." She said as she pulled me up.
I had got her back. I promised her that I wont drink ever again or even smoke for that matter of fact. But all that didn't matter to me. Arpita was back in my life. My life was back on track. I had a huge sigh of relief.
I lost her and found her back in the same day. The 24 hours that changed my life completely.
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