Darkness all around as I lay there in the bed. Surprisingly, I found it hard to get some sleep this time around, I sleep like a baby otherwise. I was calm, felt a lot satisfied. I wondered whether i felt that because I was celebrating my graduation or I was away from my family after a really long time. I got up and headed for the washroom. While I was in there, I heard a melodic tune playing in my room. I entered the room and made myself comfortable on the left side of the twin bed in the room.
Mann Mera from Table No. 21 playing.
As the song went on, I really felt connected to the lyrics of the song. It was like the song was written for me. The thoughts of my times spent with each and every girl from my past relationships occupied my head. More than anyone else, I was reminded of Arpita. A faint smile, almost a blush, wiped across my face. Her face, ever-so-soothing smile, her magical touch, her...!
"Dude, I am crying." He said as he pushed my shoulder, breaking a chain of my beautiful thoughts.
"What ? Why ?" I said, partially cursing him for getting me out of my dreamland and partially out of utter shock. Shocked not because a fully grown man was crying in front of me, but because he was. Which he never does, I could never imagine him expressing this emotion.
"What happened ?" I asked him out of sheer surprise.
"Nothing. Just missing my girl a lot." he said with a weak voice wrapped in tiny sobs.
Now this would be really surprising for 99 percent of the people who knew him closely, but not for me. Not because I knew him more closely than most of his friends. But because I knew how sloshed he was at that time. 7 pints of Budweiser was speaking now. But having said that, I also knew how much he loved her.
"Stop behaving like a girl, dude. I know how much you love her." I said that trying to lighten up the mood and also making sure I don't hurt his feelings. Guys hardly express their feelings in-front of his mates.
"If I am going to marry anyone, I want it to be her." he said that as he broke down completely.
Having seen him in this state, and after listening to his 15 minutes of continuous whining about everything from his girl to his family, I decided to text his girlfriend and asked her to call him up as soon as possible.
She eventually did and I had to listen to the whole conversation. He was really honest about whatever he said to her. And I hate to admit, but it made my eyes wet too.
He ended his call and the songs started playing again. I got up and got the ash-tray. I asked him to light one up and calm down. We sat there hurting ourselves to overcome our pains and forget them. Talking about what we went through in the last 6-8 months. He asked me if I ever think of Arpita. Listening to her name broke me from the inside and I too started weeping, but I controlled myself.
We ended up joking about what we did in the last hour or so. And started blaming each other for the girl-like session we just had. I switched off the lights and lay myself back in the heart-melting thoughts of her. All the hate I had managed to gather against her (and I had done that just to make me forget her, I never really hated her) vanished away in a matter of few hours. That's when I realized how lonely I felt. Atleast, he had someone to talk to in his weakest moment. I didn't have anyone.
That's when I heard a manly voice from the other bed, "Bhen di taki beer da kamal hai, sab bahar aa gaya" ("This is all beer's fault, everything came out", Amir Khan's dialogue from Rang De Basanti). And me and my best buddy Aditya burst into laughter.
Mann Mera from Table No. 21 playing.
As the song went on, I really felt connected to the lyrics of the song. It was like the song was written for me. The thoughts of my times spent with each and every girl from my past relationships occupied my head. More than anyone else, I was reminded of Arpita. A faint smile, almost a blush, wiped across my face. Her face, ever-so-soothing smile, her magical touch, her...!
"Dude, I am crying." He said as he pushed my shoulder, breaking a chain of my beautiful thoughts.
"What ? Why ?" I said, partially cursing him for getting me out of my dreamland and partially out of utter shock. Shocked not because a fully grown man was crying in front of me, but because he was. Which he never does, I could never imagine him expressing this emotion.
"What happened ?" I asked him out of sheer surprise.
"Nothing. Just missing my girl a lot." he said with a weak voice wrapped in tiny sobs.
Now this would be really surprising for 99 percent of the people who knew him closely, but not for me. Not because I knew him more closely than most of his friends. But because I knew how sloshed he was at that time. 7 pints of Budweiser was speaking now. But having said that, I also knew how much he loved her.
"Stop behaving like a girl, dude. I know how much you love her." I said that trying to lighten up the mood and also making sure I don't hurt his feelings. Guys hardly express their feelings in-front of his mates.
"If I am going to marry anyone, I want it to be her." he said that as he broke down completely.
Having seen him in this state, and after listening to his 15 minutes of continuous whining about everything from his girl to his family, I decided to text his girlfriend and asked her to call him up as soon as possible.
She eventually did and I had to listen to the whole conversation. He was really honest about whatever he said to her. And I hate to admit, but it made my eyes wet too.
He ended his call and the songs started playing again. I got up and got the ash-tray. I asked him to light one up and calm down. We sat there hurting ourselves to overcome our pains and forget them. Talking about what we went through in the last 6-8 months. He asked me if I ever think of Arpita. Listening to her name broke me from the inside and I too started weeping, but I controlled myself.
We ended up joking about what we did in the last hour or so. And started blaming each other for the girl-like session we just had. I switched off the lights and lay myself back in the heart-melting thoughts of her. All the hate I had managed to gather against her (and I had done that just to make me forget her, I never really hated her) vanished away in a matter of few hours. That's when I realized how lonely I felt. Atleast, he had someone to talk to in his weakest moment. I didn't have anyone.
That's when I heard a manly voice from the other bed, "Bhen di taki beer da kamal hai, sab bahar aa gaya" ("This is all beer's fault, everything came out", Amir Khan's dialogue from Rang De Basanti). And me and my best buddy Aditya burst into laughter.
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