Break-ups hurt like hell. You just want to be alone. The world doesn't matter anymore. Because apparently, everything is lost when you lose someone who once meant the whole world. But being dumped and dumping someone has totally different effects. When dumped, its not really in your hand. But when in my case I had to make a choice. I had made the right choice. I didn't want to be the other guy. I wanted to be THE guy. The only guy. Going with my choice meant, no more make-outs. But I had my huge ego to satisfy. And I guess you'd do the same, if put in my situation.
I missed her, her awesome flawless beauty. But she had hurt me. And since I had dumped her, I wasn't going through the "Post Breakup Trauma". Rather, I was more focused on my career ahead. Getting good grades, getting into a reputed engineering institution was all on my mind for now. I had decided to keep away from relationships for the time being. I couldn't afford to get hurt anymore.
I was back to my nerdiest best. Still sucked at chemistry. But I wasn't worried about it since the nerd in me was back. I knew I'd pass easily. Meanwhile the year ended and I started preparing for 12th grade. Attending classes regularly, movies and porn in free time. Life was back on track. A new girl had joined our school in 12th. She was different from the lot I had grown up with. Ofcourse I had noticed her. But I really didn't want anything to happen in my life again.
Six months into my 12th grade, Aashi came to know about my feelings for her. Seriously saying, I didn't care much. Her relationship was now rocky. I knew her boyfriend was cheating on her. I had known her since a long time and I thought she deserved to know the truth about the guy she used to cry for. I stalked her for some time, and one day when I found her alone, I went up to her and informed about her guy's infidelity. She got pissed off. She got back at me and said that I was saying all that because I wanted her to breakup. (That was not my intention. I hardly cared). And that she knew I had feelings for her. Apparently our common friend had puked out everything about how much I loved her. Girls, I tell you. Never trust them with secrets. They hardly can keep any. I walked away from Aashi's life.
High school was over. I scored 78% in my board exams. I told you, I wasn't a total nerd after all. I scored well in chemistry, apparently with the help from one of my best friends from whom I cheated. Life rocked. I was just excited about my completely new life.
I got into a fairly reputed college. SVIT. "College is the best time of your life. When else are your parents going to spend several thousand a year just for you to go to a strange town and get drunk every night?" College baby !! Here I come.
I missed her, her awesome flawless beauty. But she had hurt me. And since I had dumped her, I wasn't going through the "Post Breakup Trauma". Rather, I was more focused on my career ahead. Getting good grades, getting into a reputed engineering institution was all on my mind for now. I had decided to keep away from relationships for the time being. I couldn't afford to get hurt anymore.
I was back to my nerdiest best. Still sucked at chemistry. But I wasn't worried about it since the nerd in me was back. I knew I'd pass easily. Meanwhile the year ended and I started preparing for 12th grade. Attending classes regularly, movies and porn in free time. Life was back on track. A new girl had joined our school in 12th. She was different from the lot I had grown up with. Ofcourse I had noticed her. But I really didn't want anything to happen in my life again.
Six months into my 12th grade, Aashi came to know about my feelings for her. Seriously saying, I didn't care much. Her relationship was now rocky. I knew her boyfriend was cheating on her. I had known her since a long time and I thought she deserved to know the truth about the guy she used to cry for. I stalked her for some time, and one day when I found her alone, I went up to her and informed about her guy's infidelity. She got pissed off. She got back at me and said that I was saying all that because I wanted her to breakup. (That was not my intention. I hardly cared). And that she knew I had feelings for her. Apparently our common friend had puked out everything about how much I loved her. Girls, I tell you. Never trust them with secrets. They hardly can keep any. I walked away from Aashi's life.
High school was over. I scored 78% in my board exams. I told you, I wasn't a total nerd after all. I scored well in chemistry, apparently with the help from one of my best friends from whom I cheated. Life rocked. I was just excited about my completely new life.
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